It's Safe to Awaken

In my meditation today I saw how and why I distract myself with the meaningless. 

I saw that i was afraid of awakening,  

afraid of the healing of my mind.  

As I was having an experience of awakening, through a holy instant in  deep yoga, 

I saw how afraid my ego became, as if something dangerous was happening, 

 or was  going to happen as a result, 

And I felt fear after the peace. 

I saw my ego's fear of me awakening, 

And it's a mortal fear. 

I could clearly see how in the past, 

whenever I allowed myself to have experiences of waking from my ego state, 

My ego felt threatened, 

and told me of some danger I had forgotten to fear. 

I then heard a loving voice say in my mind 

"It's safe to awaken, 

No price need be paid for awakening, 

And you do deserve to waken to this peace,  

as your natural state."